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So, I work in a department at the hospital that has 6 employees total, and I have 2 bosses (a supervisor and a director) Don’t need 2 bosses to in a department this size. It’s just not needed. My boss is very smart, and knows everything there is to know about medical staff governance, credentialing, compliance, etc.; however, her people skills for the most part are terrible. My supervisor came to the department a couple years ago, not knowing much at all about Medical Staff Services, but has a lot of experience as an administrative assistant. This certainly comes in handy in our department, but is just the tip of the iceberg for what we need to know. Plus, since she doesn’t know what she’s doing in regards to the meat and potatoes of the job, she has to be the enforcer/know it all about stupid crap that doesn’t even matter.
The boss is of course ultimately responsible for everything, but tries to isolate herself. She takes care of researching issues, goes to a lot of meeting (not really sure what for), and dishes out tasks to my supervisor. My supervisor then takes those tasks, which she doesn’t comprehend, and passes them off to us. She also does our yearly review, disciplinary issues, as if there are any, and takes minutes at all of the department meetings. When it comes to some parts of HER job (writing privileges – have to know current standards and requirements), she always finds away to push it off to me.
For the past couple years now, she’s been supervising me, but still knows very little about my job. My co-worker and I have offered to teach her, show her, etc., but she’s always “too busy,” (too busy yappin her dang trap to try to fit in with the social elite). Anyway, my TWO bosses both have the type of personality where they get so freakin uptight about little things that just don’t matter. For instance, we had a meeting a while back for the Department of Family Practice. Typically, only 4-5 people show up. When she arrived to the room, she noticed that she was one spoon short. The room had service order for 12 people, so there should have been 12 place settings. She had 1 less, which would mean she still had 11, and still more than enough for those in attendance, but since she order 12, she wanted to be sure she got all 12…just in case.
The thing is when only one boss is here; they each seem to act much more appropriately. When they are both here, it seems as though they like to make sure my coworker and I know they are in charge by acting like top dog, barking out orders, ruffling feathers, and simply being pompous a-holes. The worst part about that is my two bosses are buddies with the VP for our division – not a chance in hell anything is going to change, at least not drastically. The last 2 people who complained were replaced.
y two bosses are buddies with the VP for our division – not a chance in hell anything is going to change, at least not drastically. The last 2 people who complained were replaced.
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I love this song! It’s a reminder of where I’ve been, and more importantly of my Father’s love for me. He won’t ever let me go, and He’s always there. He is my Rock, my Healer. He has picked me up from the rubbish, and is now dusting me off and shining me up, which is way harder for me than I would’ve ever thought.
The lie I’ve told myself for years about not being good enough, being a disappointment to others, and not being worthy of love, I’ve somehow thought God thought the same. This isnt true. I can say, or think, in my mind that this isn’t true, but truly feeling it in my heart is another story.
I know I’ve been blessed to have been given such a loving family, and now God has given me a wonderful man who is loving, patient and understanding of the journey I’m walking. I don’t know if this is the right forum to ask, but please pray for me as God continues to work in my life to clean out the guilt and pain from my past that I’ve stowed away for so long.
“Will Not Be Moved”
I have been the wayward child
I have acted out
I have questioned Sovereignty
And had my share of doubt
And though sometimes my prayers feel like
They’re bouncing off the sky
The hand I hold won’t let me go
And is the reason why…
[Chorus:]
I will stumble
I will fall down
But I will not be moved
I will make mistakes
I will face heartache
But I will not be moved
On Christ the Solid Rock I stand
All other ground is sinking sand
I will not be moved
Bitterness has plagued my heart
Many times before
My life has been like broken glass
And I have kept the score
Of all my shattered dreams and though it seemed
That I was far too gone
My brokenness helped me to see
It’s grace I’m standing on
[Chorus]
And the chaos in my life
Has been a badge I’ve worn
Though I have been torn
I will not be moved
[Chorus]
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I am a credentialing specialist. It is my job to thoroughly investigate practitioner’s education, training, and experience to ensure that they are “qualified” to practice the kind of medicine that they wish to practice in the hospital were I work. Credentials (i.e. proper education, licensing, board certification, etc.) are very important, but how much is too much, and who determines where to set the bar?
At one time, many trades were passed down from generation to generation with simple on the job training, but someone decided that wasn’t good enough. Someone decided that to be a secretary, hotel manager, truck driver, etc. that one must obtain that special piece of paper. By the way, you can’t say secretary anymore. They are now called Administrative Assistants, and they’re not called waiters or waitresses, they’re servers. Same darn thing, just with a fancy name. Oo-la-la…whatever.
That piece of paper has become overused, and now rather than giving a job to a perfectly qualified person based on job skills, a job is given based on paper, or EOE (don’t get me started on that – it’s not all bad, but again, misused). In my opinion, over the past decade or so, that oh so coveted piece of paper has become more of a status symbol, or a tool for those in power to keep others from encroaching on their turf, and another means for the rich man to get richer. I mean, does someone really need to have a degree or a certificate to show that they are competent to answer phones, file, take notes, etc.?
What a bunch of bunk!
I’ve been in my current job since 8/01, without any specific education, training specific to the job (just basic medical and secretarial work experience), or certification, yet I am clearly very qualified or I wouldn’t still be in this position, AND would not have been capable of advancing, training others, etc.
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Well, well…there certainly is a day for everything! Two people informed me that last Friday was National Pirate Day. I really thought they were full of crap, but by golly, it’s true! Who thinks of this stuff? Check out this nerd who was only 1 of many who felt the urge to post a video of himself on You Tube. Please, if I ever do something so ridiculous, please stop me!
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Day 3 of 4
Notice, God placed the man in the garden, “eastward in Eden.” It’s not enough to be in the garden, you’ve got to be in the right location. You must pray, “Lord, place me in my garden.”
You learn a lot by raising children. You’re older and wiser, saying, “Don’t do that. Don’t go there.” But you can’t cut through the process. They have to stumble, because that’s how they learn to walk and find their way. Maybe you yourself worked at several jobs before figuring out what you were supposed to do. That’s because you weren’t “placed” yet. At some point, if you’re wise, you begin to pray, “Lord, don’t let me spend my life trying stuff, place me!”
You can be in the right place and not know it – because the place has been planted, not created! Dave Thomas, the founder of Wendy’s, was the child of an unwanted mother. He recalls being ashamed of not having a decent pair of shoes to wear. Imagine: a school dropout, wearing shoes that don’t fit, working as a bus boy, waiting tables—but he has a six-billion-dollar business (think he died a few years back) inside him. It doesn’t matter where you start, it just matters where you finish. You need to look in the mirror and announce, “There’s something in me that hasn’t come out yet. God, help me to be steadfast until You pull out of me what You planted in me.” Don’t let anyone convince you that you’re a failure because you don’t wear the right shoes, or have it all together right now. God has a place in mind for you. Just walk with Him and He’ll get you there.
“It doesn’t matter where you start, it just matters where you finish.” I think that says it all. I read something in a Max Lucado book a long time ago that said something like God loves you just the way you are, but He loves you too much to leave you that way. Isn’t that amazing?! He’s constantly pruning the rubbish away, planting seeds, guiding the direction of growth and molding His children into beautiful gardens or fine pieces of pottery (“O Israel, can I not do to you as this potter has done to his clay? As the clay is in the potter’s hand, so are you in my hand. Jer. 18:6)
Most of my life I was a happy carefree soul that was outgoing very social. However, somehow over the years of disappointment, failures, and hurts in my life I created a wall between myself and others. I told myself that it was OK to put up this “wall” to protect myself. I wasn’t really protecting myself at all, rather I was keeping myself from being the person God created me to be.
Instead of dealing with certain events in my life properly by going through the emotional process (grieving and healing), I just kept it in and told myself I was being strong. Looking back now, I realize what a crock of crap that was! I don’t think I’m alone in this, because I know people all over who brush off major events in their life as if their no big deal, then they become angry, hateful, bitter, resentful, and the list could go on. Was I becoming, or am I already, one of those people? I hope not.
I believe God has placed me in my garden, and has led others into their garden at just the right time to allow for the weeds in my life to be cleared, and to allow the seed that was planted oh so long ago to really start to grow and flourish.
I beg You, oh Lord, to help me look ahead. Forgetting what’s past, enable me to envision all the ways You can rebuild me, and my life ahead. I place my hope in You and rest in the knowledge that You hold each day of my life in Your very capable hands. Let my hope in You be evident to all – but especially to my son, and children to come. Enable them to see the sure confidence I have in you, Lord, as I rely on your grace and power each day. Make it possible for them to see the future with hope, no matter what’s happened in their past. When troubles come, as surely they will, help them place their hope in you, and look to you alone for help. Give them faith to trust in You in every circumstance and know that, with you, they will succeed. ~Amen~
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Day 4 of 4
The Bible says: “God took man and put him in the Garden of Eden to work it and take care of it” (Ge 2:15). Today God may be saying to you, “I’ve prepared you, placed you where you need to be, planted blessings in your life that are scheduled to come up at different times, but now you’ve got to work it.” Stop looking for gardens that are already pruned; you have to prune your own garden. You have to go through your own struggles and shed your own tears, or in the case of Dave Thomas, founder of Wendy’s, wait on tables and work your way up. When people give you stuff they can take it from you. When God gives it to you, it’s yours! But you’ve got to take
care of it. You have to prune your own children; they’re not going to turn out right if you neglect them (See Pr 22:6). You have to prune your own relationships; “Blessed is the man who walks not in the counsel of the ungodly” (Ps 1:1). You have to prune your own business. That means honoring God as your partner, allowing Him to use your business to promote His business.
When you walk with God He’ll protect and prosper you, even in hard times. But you’ve still got to “work it.” Ask any farmer; wheat left unattended will eventually seed itself to death. It must be cultivated. There’s nothing wrong with your life – except that you’re expecting God to do things He’s expecting you to do. Come on, get some shears and start pruning!
I’m not exactly a gardener (have a black thumb), but I have seen garden shears and they are sharp! These sharp blades are used to cut through shrubs, bushes and branches. I don’t know about you, but the thought of something sharp cutting into sensitive and private areas of my life sounds painful. I don’t like being pushed out of my comfort zone, but lately when I’ve been drawn out (not pushed), it’s allowed those walls that I’ve created around me to start crumbling. It hurts to deal with things of the past; some of which weren’t all that so long ago. But because I’m able to deal with the hurt and painful areas in my life, I’m finally able to start becoming more of the person God created me to be. God created me to be loving, caring and nurturing, but after so many years of bad relationships, I acquired turtle syndrome. I retreated to my hard shell, and was afraid to come out. I don’t think God created us to have hard shells; at least He didn’t create me to have one.
We’ve all heard the saying, “life is not always easy,” and it’s not. Here’s the rest of the quote by Ralph Marston.
And that is a major reason why it is so precious. Many of life’s best rewards are possible only because you must work your way through difficult challenges to get to them. If everything in life were easy, there would be no opportunity for real fulfillment.If the only things you experienced were pleasure and comfort, it would be impossible for you to fully appreciate them. A life of total ease and a complete lack of challenge would be unbearably tedious.
When the next challenge comes your way, when the next obstacle blocks your progress, find it in yourself to be thankful. For the difficulties provide you with truly magnificent opportunities to create value, to find meaning and fulfillment in living.
The challenges enable you to give of yourself and to make a real difference. And that’s something you desire at the deepest level.
Life is not always easy. And because of that, you have the opportunity to make it truly great.
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